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Date:2008-04-03 20:32
Subject:Updates!
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Okay, so here's the deal:
I'm working full time, and taking night classes, including a science class with lab.  I'm so sleep deprived that when I have time to write, it's pretty horrifying.  Like, the same phrase will appear multiple times in consecutive paragraphs. 
Argh.
But!  Summer is coming, and while I will have extracurricular activities (please, God, let one of them be sleep), hopefully there will be time to write smut again.  Yay!

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Date:2007-11-22 21:51
Subject:Once Burned
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Mood: guilty

So, so, sorry flist - my life has been really, truly insane recently.  Family illness, full-time work + school, and drama, drama, drama!  I love you all, and I'm sorry I've been AWOL!
And some days, you just end up writing hurt/comfort.  What can I say?  Angst, mention of torture, comfort.  13x6x5.  Probably part 1 of 2.

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Date:2007-07-04 17:21
Subject:Unnamed AU, continued from . . . November?!
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Mood:cough medicined

Has it seriously been more than six months since the last chapter of this?  Urk.  Time flies when you're working.  Not that I was prolific when I *wasn't* working, but I never felt too zombified to write.  Refresher link!

Happy 4th of July, United Statesians!

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Date:2007-05-08 13:50
Subject:Common Ground 1
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Mood:smug

Common Ground 1 - See the third update in three days?  See it?  I rock.  (Thank you, commenters - you make me write!)

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Date:2007-05-07 11:43
Subject:Common Ground - the rest of the Prologue
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Mood: impressed

Quickest update ever.  Whoo.  Some days, it's totally worth going to work.  I'm not happy with it yet, but my new resolution is to obsess less and "publish" more.
Updated warnings: 5x13/13x5, possible 13x6x5, kink, angst, sap.
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Date:2007-05-06 20:36
Subject:Prologue - Common Ground
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Mood:accomplished

Another fic, hopefully (but not promised) to be continued.  AU, possible OOC (still working on Wimpy!Wu), other normal warnings - ie pretty much anything goes.  Not sure if this will be 6x5/6x13 or not.  I'm playing with a couple ideas.  Also, apologies for the shortness of the chapter - blame the thunderstorms!  They lost about half the chapter.
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Date:2007-03-08 11:17
Subject:Not dead
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No, really.  Totally not dead.  I'm working, and not writing very much at all.  45 hours a week really subtracts from the "fun" time available.  Occasionally I can snatch a few hours here and there, but I'm not writing faster than normal; I'm still averaging approximately no progress, no matter how long the document stays open. 

Mostly I'm playing games and designing them in what little free time I have.  Also, I try to keep my clothes from being shredded by my cats, who believe this is a delightful game to play.

I do have story ideas, just not very much urge to get them on paper. 

Sorry I've kind of dropped out of sight.  I'm still around - writing in LJ just reminds me that I mostly wanted to use it for fics.  Oh, well.

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Date:2006-12-07 21:22
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So if I dated people?  This is what I'd be.  Interesting.

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Date:2006-11-18 07:05
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This morning, michalyn posted a response to some of the gay sex vs. yaoi sex articles out there.  I was going to respond in a comment, but since this issue strikes home on a lot of levels, it got kind of long.

It's important to me to see communities, especially those I'm a part of, represented accurately.  (Not because the communities I'm a part of are more important, but I'm more familiar with them.)  Accuracy's a dangerous word, because the big umbrella words we use don't describe all communities, and trends certainly don't determine individual behavior.  When people, especially people outside the group, misrepresent it, it can be good or bad, but often it's extremely damaging.  When I see "lesbian" porn where two women have sex until the man arrives and then turn to him, it makes me wince.  Not because I think men watch this for a precise anthropological report on lesbians, but because those impressions get transferred anyway.  When I hear of welfare queens, and think about the pittance my mom takes home in supplement to her job, and how she struggles to make ends meet, it's extremely depressing. 

So I can totally understand a gay man reading the flower and jeweled-orb studded purple prose of mostly straight women, and smacking his head against the desk.  There's certainly trends in yaoi (more or less hate that word, but makes a distinction, so I'll use it) that *I* find disturbing.  The imposed gender roles.  The romance-dime-store novel purple prose.  The unlikely simultaneous orgasms, intuitive knowledge of the other person's turn ons, and amazing observancy.  (My favorite so far from memory:  "Naruto looked down, grinning.  From the movement of his eyelashes, Sasuke could tell that he was troubled - not just a little, but deeply, and it could only be about one thing." Riiighht.)

I think it's damaging to pretend all gay males are monogamous, gender-role assigned, romance machines - just like it's dangerous to assume that about straight men, straight women, and all shades of queer.  It's one thing that irritates me about the marriage arguments.  Marriage is about family for some people.  For others, it's about love.  Or green cards.  Or financial stability, friendship, trust, loneliness, children, habit, expectation, or curiosity. 

It would be wonderful if more writers dealt with some issues that real couples, gay and straight, run into, and recognize that there tend to be different sets of expectations within different circles.  It would not be weird for two gay male characters to meet and then have sex in the back room.  It would be weird if they then assumed they were OMG!meant to be forever.  But to say that gay men aren't romantic is as damaging as to assume that there's always a dominant "male" top and a submissive "female" bottom.  I write about relationships that I think will be romantic (usually), because that's what I like.  I don't think of, say, Sasuke and his brother cuddling on the couch, so I don't write them.  What I'd like to make more of an effort is to recognize the deviance from the stereotype that this is.  That is, not everybody has to be hooked up, in perfect monogamous sparkly relationships.  That's not what it's like on any side of the orientation divides. 

What I enjoy is reading about character relationships, which are only believable if the characters are believable.  It's possible to make relationships that are traditional "yaoi-ish" but believable because of the way the characters relate.  The opposite's also true.  What's super nice is if the writer takes some time to put believable characters in a believable world.  I wince when I read Japanese in a fanfic written in English set in China (where people now wear kimonos, even in 2006).  I wince when I read high school fics where everybody is pro or anti-gay people.  I usually raise an eyebrow when I read about canon Treize (a general, remember, and someone I think of as being pretty romantic) having unprotected sex with half his staff.  I want people to do research and think about the reprecussions for the characters' personalities and lives.  If part of your life is being one of the dykes on bikes, great.  But be prepared to explain why she's wearing a pretty cotton sundress and in the closet on the job, 'kay? 

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Date:2006-11-09 16:00
Subject:More unnamed AU
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Part II - continued from 7-23 or whatever.

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Date:2006-11-09 13:55
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So.  Hi.  Sorry about that gap in posting.  Basically, I moved back to the US, and then across the US.  Good times.  But I now have my own apartment (yay) and two kittens (double yay!) and no job (boo hiss).  I'm doing some writing again, but still agonizingly slowly.  I'm also feeling guilty for girly!Wufei and stereotype!plot and identical!Zechs-Treize.  So, yeah.

I owe phoenix a story *cough* months ago *cough*, but my hard disk got wiped, and rewriting crap has never really been my strong suit.  I tend to get even more mopey and slow than before, and it never comes out as good the second time round.  So . . . if she wanted to throw out some ideas . . . that might help.  Or if someone else wanted to.  However, this isn't really fishing.  If you want to, great, just understand that things get written at the rate of excruciatingly slow.

In other news: kittens are cute!  I defy anyone not to go "Awwww!" at them playing with Q-tips in the bathtub.  And they've discovered claws, so they're climbing me like a stumpy tree to sit on my shoulder and lick my ear. 

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Date:2006-07-23 04:27
Subject:Yay!
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Going back to US Monday.  So I'm procrastinating by writing!  Yay!

AU in that this is not set within a timeline, and deviates pretty quickly and pretty far from canon.  Err, maybe it sort of started outside the canon.  It’s been a long time since I watched the show.  Also, this may not be expanded to a proper length story.  I find posting things helps my train of thought.  If it is expanded, then this comes from the middle.  In the previous parts, Wufei and Zechs have shared a cell, courtesy of Romefeller, so they are acquainted with each other.  Wufei’s escaped custody, and has a nasty cut on one shoulder.  

I fully expect to have at least one more part, probably two, but if you hate unfinished things, this is not the piece (and to all appearances, I’m probably not the author.)  

Warnings: May or may not be continued; may or may not contain: NCS, torture, drugs, angst, sex, and unintentional out-of-characterness, happy endings.  Future 13x6x5.

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Date:2006-06-30 13:54
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Vacation photos.  I wish I were on vacation now.  It's so hot, so awful that all I want to do is sit by the air conditioner and sleep.  Instead I've got more classes.  Sigh.  Three more weeks, and then I'll be unemployed. 
Still, pretty pretty.



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Date:2006-06-14 03:01
Subject:Tae Ay Hanguk!
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Go Korea.  Or Corea.  Or whatever.  Whenever there's a goal/exciting movement, the entire neighborhood screams.  Like, literally, I can sit in my room and go "Oh, we scored another one" because EVERYONE is watching TV and shouts in triumph.

Go us!

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Date:2006-06-13 01:13
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Long since back from vacation, but I've been waiting for the buzz to wear off.  Why don't I go on vacation alone, when I have the opportunity?  Not that going with Mom wasn't great - it was fantastic, but when I have long weekends, I catch up on fanfiction, sleep, surf the internet, play games - you get the picture, right? 

I'm really lucky with my mom - she's awesome in every sense of the word.  (Well, she's a neat freak, but she held back from cleaning my apartment from top to bottom, so we're good.)

I seem to have lost my camera - computer connector, so no pictures.  We went south to the "tourist" island, which was fantastic regardless.  If I had any sense, I'd invest what money I don't have there.  It's beautiful, to the point where I would live there in a heartbeat if I had enough money to live there without having to do "real work."  I may go back, but it'll take a while to: take baths, eat bagels, eavesdrop on conversations, and see my family.  (Is it weird that comes last? 

I'm homesick, though; I'm trying to decide between two cities, one of which which has enormous housing costs.  ($675 a month for a bathroomless, kitchenless 13x15 room?  Yeah . . . right.  *That's* a step up from my $250 studio in a good neighborhood (granted, in the basement, with no tub, but still.) )  Bizarrely, there are friends who voluntarily have offered to live with me . . . despite all kinds of faults I can think of, but haven't brought up because I adore them. 

I'm terrified I won't find a job, or end up a permanent customer service rep.   And all I really want to do is lie on the beach and drink beer/margaritas, and maybe once in a while write something.  Thanks, liberal arts education.  I've really prepared myself well for the future. 

Random thoughts brought to you by $2.30 bottle of champagne I didn't realize was champagne until I got home and it was open, and then I had no choice but to drink it all.  (I was semi-sober when I started posting this, but then I read rosana's 13x6x5, and then it was all downhill.)  Err . . . I still owe major 13x5 and 13x6x5 fics to my friends, but typing while drunk is a bad, bad idea.  Really.

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Date:2006-05-19 11:13
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Yay!  Vacation starts today!  Still sick, but somehow lying on the beach will make that all better.

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Date:2006-05-02 10:51
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You would *think* that moving to a country where you don't really speak the language, people would STOP TRYING TO EVALGELIZE!!!! Especially at 10 in the morning when I'm expecting my floor replaced because my pipes broke (two weeks ago, thankyouverymuch slum landlord).

And then you'd think when someone says "I can't speak Korean," the evangelistas would GO AWAY, not talk about the kingdom of heaven in Korean.

Arrrgh.

Maybe she would like to see some boysmut.

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Date:2006-05-01 14:32
Subject:EEEKKK. Day o' smut.
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Mood:creative

Finally dug out my poor abused Wacom. Hey! I thought. I'll make some iconage for Michalyn and perk her up.

Which turned into 13x5. Which turned into 13x5 *porn*. Which demanded to be colored. And then written up in a drabble. It's so not perfect in a huge number of ways, including the lack of Wufei's nipples, but you can actually tell they're people, which is a huge advance in my art skill.

If I were feeling particularly masochistic, I'd whine about all the sucky things about it, but deep down I'm pretty pleased. Validate me, those of you who do not fear explicitness. (And I'm pretty much not kidding.) I have no idea whether Michalyn is okay with visual perviness - I swear it just happened. If you'd prefer an icon . . .

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Date:2006-04-27 15:29
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So after a week of fever, sore throat, and rasp voice descending into non-voice, I finally went to the doctor. I got drugs, and instructions to rest. My boss is willing to change my vacation, but he doesn't want me to use sick days - only vacation days. It's hard arguing with someone when you can barely talk. This time I even have a med certificate.

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Date:2006-04-13 00:13
Subject:Am I spoiled?
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Swiped from Kracken.

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